???

when did i become like this
when did i feel like this
why do i want to do this?
why am i? ... mmm.

juno

loose lips might sink ships but loose gooses take trips
to San Francisco, double dutch disco,
tech tv hottie, do it for scotty
do it for the living and do it for the dead
do it for the monsters under your bed
do it for the teenagers and do it for your mom
broken hearts hurt but they make us strong and
we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened
we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened
we're just dancing, we're just hugging,
singing, screaming, kissing, tugging
on the sleeve of how it used to be
how's it gonna be?
I'll drop kick russell stover, move into the starting over house
and know matt rouse and jest are watching me achieve my dreams
and we'll pray, all damn day, every day,
that all this shit our president has got us in will go away
while we strive to figure out a way we can survive
these trying times without losing our minds
so if you wanna burn yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
and if you wanna cut yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
and if you wanna kill yourself remember that I LOVE YOU
call me up before your dead, we can make some plans instead
send me an IM, I'll be your friend
shysters live from scheme to scheme and my 4th quarter pipe dreams
are seeming more and more worth fighting for
so I'll curate some situations, make my job a big vacation
and i'll say FUCK BUSH AND FUCK THIS WAR
my war paint is Sharpie ink and I'll show you how much my shit stinks
and ask you what you think because your thoughts and words are powerful
they think we're disposable, well both my thumbs opposable
are spelled out on a double word and triple letter score and
we won't stop until somebody calls the cops
and even then we'll start again and just pretend that
nothing ever happened X4
we're just dancing, we're just hugging,
singing, screaming, kissing, tugging
on the sleeve of how it used to be

im selfish

i fought with you again.
you drive me insane
you dont understand me
yet we're closer than we'll ever be
i dont know anyone who hates me as much as you do
this breaks my heart even though you dont see this.


on another selfish note i made up a list of things i want
(for and not for birthday):
- disney couture bracelet
- hermes kelly double tour
- hermes clic clac - black and gold
- GHD
- pearl earrings
- diamond earrings
- balenciaga giant city - black silver
- mulberry bayswater - eggplant or tan
- chanel vintage jumbo - red/black
- oroton coin purse
- chanel camelia ring

and heres a triple selfish note:
i want you for myself.
i want you here when i want you
and it seems like all the time now
i dont want to let you go.
the moment i do i might lose you

[verse 1]
never been the type of woman
that needed someone
had to do things myself
or they never got done
never knew around the corner
i'd meet someone
that i would be totally comfortable sharing my love
[hook]
now i don't mind letting my guard down
my heart is yours now
'cause baby now
[chorus]
you make me melt
like an iceberg on the sea
baby
that i've never felt
you make me melt
never ever been this weak
and this is all brand new to me
i think i should tell you
that you make me melt
[verse 2]
now you should never say never
bout whats happenin to me (?)
'cause i said
i'll never let a man take the lead
but now im dependent
baby you're all i need
wouldn't last a day or a hour
without you next to me
[hook]
[chorus]
[bridge]
now i've always been the cool independent type
but now im different when i look in your eyes
like tryin to play it as cool as ice
but you make me melt
[chorus]
the things you do baby
love is my cool
when im with you baby
- like an iceberg by claude kelly

damn weetart

songbird by eva cassidy

For you there'll be no crying
For you the sun will be shining
Cause I feel that when I'm with you
It's alright, I know it's right

And the songbirds keep singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before



To you, I would give the world
To you, I'd never be cold
‘Cause I feel that when I'm with you
It's alright, I know it's right

And the songbirds keep singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before

Like never before; like never before.

It's been....

two months and 5 days since I last posted on here.
time can fly
time can slow
time freezes when im with you

i used to only think about you.
you used to never think about me
and here you are confessing everything
you think of me and i didn't even know it.
i was casual, you were serious.
the table turned and its too late.
i waited so long for you, it could never happen.
now it really cant happen
im happy where i am
yet im sad, im sad im losing you forever now, even as a friend
come back
come back
it will work
i do miss you