omg gorgeous.

If I had eyes in the back of my head
I would have told you that
You looked good
As I walked away

And if you could've tried to trust the hand that fed
You would've never been hungry
But you never really be

The more of this or less of this or is there any difference
or are we just holding onto the things we don't have anymore

Sometimes time doesn't heal
No not at all
Just stand still
While we fall
In or out of love again I doubt I'm gonna win you back
When you got eyes like that
It won't let me in
[If I Had Eyes lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Always looking out

Lot of people spend their time just floating
We were victims together but lonely
You got hungry eyes that just can't look forward
Can't give them enough but we just can't start over
Building with bent nails we're
falling but holding, I don't wanna take up anymore of your time
Time time time

Sometimes time doesn't heal
No not all
Just stand still
While we fall
In or out of love again I doubt I'm gonna win you back
When you got eyes like that
It won't let me in
Always looking out
Always lookin
- if i had eyes by jack johnson

sunday

sunday
the day of rest, the day that i stop and actually get time to reflect.
i hate sundays. i dont like stopping, i like being on the whirlwind
thing that i call life. as soon as i stop, reality hits, its not so simple
anymore... everything becomes difficult. i wish everyday was mon,
tues, wed, thurs, fri, sat... anything but sunday. i dont want reality,
i want imagination, creativity, life, blur. i love blur.

o-weeeekkkk goodnesss

it's been a while
and a lot of shit has happened.

what amazes me is the fact that i am still a royal idiot.
acutallly it amazes me more that a week has gone past.
it went... fast but slow. BAH uni on monday. seems torturous.

monday:
- showbag making
- makeup from the breakup
- seeing the first years and thinking.... awwww they're so young
tuesday:
- carnivale day
- subway tickles my fancy
- dj's do not
- first yrs tickle me pink too
- mpsa card is more than we can handle in a 5 min period.
- heat and lucey don't go together
- anger increases when shit friends do shit things and blame us for being shit when it's a combination of you and me
- you are my mediator. you keep me sane when im sad. i need you
wednesday:
- i think we overcompensated
- i shouldnt be scared at being late
- locks are stupid
- fast and the furious is fun
- kerry and i laugh TOO much
- i am a royal idiot
- labcoat issue is fixed
thursday:
- alcohol flows through my blood
- you saved me
- you're SOOOO cute *swoon*

composure

so you think you can dance calmed me down
i feel less angry, less emo, less argh but still so argh at the same time
watching other people and hearing their stories make me feel so petty.

i hate being petty.
i hate being emo.
i hate liking you.
thats right. i hate it.
but i do. argh.

POO
hahaha.

dance 1 - ri + jd
love love love
hot. she was fierce

dance ?? - gemma + rhys.
he's so drool. i love a mac makeup boy.
he can do my makeup any day.
i think i have the same eyeshadow that he was watching in the package

dance ??? - laura + jumping dude.
i love this. they looked hot.
reminds me of my emotions.

omg omg omg marco as a kid was so cute.
mj outfit all the way. btw wtf. a punk jive.

omg khali is so short compared to kate. LMAO LMAO LMAO. they'll so go.
boogaloo.

here we go.

once again.
as if it has never happened before.
i can feel it even prior to you doing it.
its going to happen.
it will be the same as last time... possibly better possibly worse.
you hold the key

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5 6 7 8
9 and 10
money cant buy back the love you had.

withdrawl symptoms.

you bitch!
how could you not talk to me for so many days.
we've both missed out on so much gossip.
and you let me go on and on about my bullshit.
ur stuff make me squeal! SQUEAL!!!!!

no more long distances bitch! i need my daily source of amanda.

less than rich

im sitting here counting up cash that isn't mine and it makes me depressed.
there are so many coins here waiting to be cashed in but it wont be going in my bank account.
i bought a laptop today.... BUT once again it wasn't for me.
this is now getting depressing, cashed up but so so sooooo poor at the same time.

thanks for doing what you did.
but now im in doubt. and wanting out.
push me in the right direction and make me want again.
i wanted it when i didnt have it.
now i have it... and... it's... ???

pangs of pain.

it hurts.

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Tell me
What you thinkin about when got me waiting patiently
Usually I don't have to wait for nobody
But there's somethin bout you that really got me feelin weak
And I'm tryin to find the words to speak

Boy I got my eyes on you
Tell me what you wanna do
I can picture you in my room
Until the mornin
I don't even know your name
Boy I need to know your name
I'm hopin that you feel the same
Tell me if you want it
- Tell Me by Xtina + P. Diddy

let me repay you for the week you've been through.

I wanna put my fingers thru your hair
Wrap me up in your legs
And love you till your eyes roll back
I'm tryin to put you to bed, bed, bed
I'mma put you to bed, bed, bed
Then I'ma rock your body
Turn you over
Love is war
I'm your soldier
Touching you like it's our first time
I'mma put you to bed, bed, bed
I'ma put you to bed, bed, bed
- Bed by J. Holiday